
Ryan:
I can hardly believe that today you turn 4 years old! I try and remember to tell you every single day how glad that I am God gave you to me. How happy I am that you get to be my little boy. And you know what you are constantly telling me when I say this? "I'm a big boy, Mommy!" You are right...where has the time gone!?
I remember how excited (ok, and shocked) I was when I learned I was pregnant with you. Daddy wanted to take the day off work to celebrate, but I insisted on "normalcy" that day, and we settled for a lunch date were we headed straight to Borders to read all about what was in store for the next 9 months while we waited for your precious arrival. Your Daddy used this as prime opportunity to tease me about expanding bellies, stretch marks, swelling, etc. I do think I got the last laugh here though, as during the first half of prenancy I was sick, sick, sick and actually lost weight!
Your Daddy wasn't quite sure how to help during all the commotion! He kept busy painstakingly painting your room (over and over and over until it was perfect) with a denim finish, a stripe and yet another color up on top just as we'd seen in a catalog, and running to KFC for mashed potatoes for me. It is hard to believe that the crib which was once yours is now your sisters, and that you have been in a "big boy bed" (with rails!) nearly 2 years now!
Four years ago, at 6:06pm (with the help of some forceps!), our lives changed forever. I'd like to say that our first moments together were perfect, but honestly, when the nurse put you on my chest I told your Daddy to take you away fast because I thought I might vomit. He did such a great job taking care of you while I tried to recover from the labor. I remember watching him
hold you, walking around the room and bouncing ever so gently and being so thankful that at least it seemed like one of us maybe knew what we were doing!
New Year's 2005 will probably be my most memorable, as we welcomed in the new year still at the hospital together. We drove home the next day probably the slowest your Daddy has ever driven, with his prized 8lb 6oz package snuggled in the back seat. When we arrived home, Daddy carried you in the kitchen and set your infant carrier on the table because we weren't sure where you "belonged" just yet. Oh my, has that mind-set changed..it seems you "belong" everywhere here!! Little did we know how much STUFF comes along with a baby (or a big boy!)!
So here we are, 4 years later. It is hard to remember what life was like before you were born. (Although I do think it involved a little more sleeping!) One thing is for sure, I never knew I could love someone so much, or worry so much, or feel so much joy - at times all in the same 10 seconds!
Ryan, you have a ZEST for life I pray you never lose. You love to dance and sing when you are happy, and you don't care who is watching. You are an influencer (and you really know how to work your grandmas, in particular!). You show empathy for others. At times you seem so aloof, and yet you know exactly everything happening around you. (Today you finished Glammie's adult conversation sentence when we didn't think you were even listening!). You know just how to melt my heart (the other day you actually stroked my hair and said "I love you, Mommy. Let's talk!" ...ok, in full-disclosure here, you are very up for talking when it's bedtime..you know just how to prolong my walking out of your bedroom. HA) =). You are fun-loving, easy-going, smart (your memory is amazing!), you love to play and have books read to you ("Tell me the words!", you request.) You are a charmer, and you are a boy everyone seems to LOVE!
I'm so glad you're mine. (and daddy's!).
Happy Birthday, my big boy!
Love, Mommy
(From your 1st year photos - how you have grown!)